Sunday, June 20, 2010
Contrary to popular belief, this life isn't meant to be easy. I'm reminded of this pretty consistently these days. It seems like mankind's natural instinct is to wish that everything we do would be "easier" or cause us "less stress". Haven't we learned by now that the best things come through hard work and struggle? Think of the things you have in life that are most valuable to you. Did they come easy or do you think at some point some real initiative had to be take to obtain those things? I feel that is how it is my life. The things that have come to me free and easy without struggle or stress or hardship don't mean nearly as much to me as the things that have caused me heartache over the years. Buck up and see that things are hard and we make mistakes but we can still be happy.
Friday, June 11, 2010
I'm having issues with missing people lately. The hard thing is that there is nothing I can do about any of the situations. I miss my best friend who's serving a mission. Things seem more complicated without him here. But I can't do a thing about that one. I miss my other dear friend who is so dear and special to me. We roller costered through a number of things and a number of years knowing one another...but he decided there wasn't something there worth fighting for and now our friendship isn't the same to me. There is nothing I can do about that. I miss my heart. It is in so many different places, held in hands other than my own...I can't do anything about it. It's not mine any more. I thought I couldn't get it back from giving it away once, but I did. I fought for it and I got it back and started giving it away again and now...hmm...perhaps my heart is lost and that is what is causing the emptiness. It's somewhere in between being given away and being received. Limbo heart. Can't quite calculate it all but I'm missing something. I hope it will come round soon.